Author’s Note: I created the outline for a short story; which turned into this free verse poem “The Abuser”. Abuse which is real, it touches many; if you see someone being abused call 911. Internet addresses for help is listed below this poem.
The smell of your breath makes me think of decay. I felt pain on my beat-up body and the crack of your belt buckle on my back. Your fists on my head felt as if my skull was going to break open; you push my face into the southern red soil that mirrored the bloodstains on your shirt as I lay beside the dirt road. I clasp my battered body and prayed, fear rose in my closing throat; I slept and woke as time stood still. You leaned against the car smoking; you ask had I learned my lesson. I asked myself if this was God’s plan for me, I am trapped and I am lost to the world of abuse; my soul has built a wall around itself ready to die. If I could return to freedom I would, I have no rights; I live for death. You will soon say that you are sorry, while you continue to imprison me. I know only madness and despair; I will welcome death on this tearless night from you my abuser.
Where to turn for help for domestic violence or abuse
In an emergency:
Call 911 or your country’s emergency service number if you need immediate assistance or have already been hurt.
Helplines for advice and support:
In the US: call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233 (SAFE).
UK: call Women’s Aid at 0808 2000 247.
Australia: call 1800RESPECT at 1800 737 732.
Worldwide: visit International Directory of Domestic Violence Agencies for a global list of helplines, shelters, and crisis centers.
For a safe place to stay:
In the US: visit Womenslaw.org for a state-by-state directory of domestic violence shelters in the U.S.